Saturday, March 26, 2011

Lies

Whoever says pregnancy is the most beautiful time in your life are liars. Big fat liars.  I never thought being pregnant would be all sunshine and rainbows, but I never thought I'd be experiencing some things I'm going through. I think mothers must have some sort of secret pact to never tell any innocent,  not yet pregnant woman all the bad things that can happen.  Don't get me wrong; I am extremely grateful that I even got pregnant, but, really, someone should tell you about these things!

Now that my "extreme" morning sickness is gone, I have moved onto other problems. I still get morning sickness, just not all day everyday like in the first 3 months. But, believe me, it's still there.  I was sent to a cardiologist to check my heart murmur, and they discovered while doing an echo that one of my heart valves stays closed.  This scared the crap out of me.  I'd never heard of this and it was the last thing I could even think of happening.  Well, turns out, some of my sisters have the same thing, and they just have it monitored, but have no real problems with it.  This made me feel a bit better. My OB is still having me talk to a cardiologist next week, just to explain things.  My OB is also having me see a high risk OB.  Between, my heart and my breathing issue, (I have some restrictive breathing due to my ribs not being completely curled as they should),  they thought I should talk to the high risk doctor and get her opinion.  She is less worried about my heart than she is about my breathing.  When you're preggo and in the 3rd trimester, most women do have some breathing issues since everything gets all smooshed up (not the technical term)  to make room for the baby. Which leads to me seeing a pulminologist on Monday.  I will be having breathing tests and who knows what else to check my lung capacity.  I'm definitely not looking forward to this and honestly a little scared of the results.  This is all just a bit too much for someone with anxiety to take in.

Lately, I've been in a lot of pain. Like, I can't walk very fast and look like I'm an 80 year old woman kind of pain.  My docs think it's my sciatica.  It's ridiculously painful.  My OB has referred me to a chiropractor and physical therapist in hopes to alleviate some of the pain.  To top it all off, they think I have a bladder infection, which is fairly common while pregnant.  Again, no one tells you these things.  While at the OB for said bladder infection yesterday, they also discovered I have a yeast infection! Really. Sorry if that's TMI, but I'm pregnant and don't care anymore. It's never ending I tell you!

My hope is that this little one will all be worth it in the end.  I think it will.
16 weeks

Maybe the reason mothers don't tell you all the gory details is because in the long run it pales in comparison to being a mother. Either way, I am refusing to be a part of this so called secret pact! 

In other news, my next ultrasound is in about a week.  Hopefully we'll find out for sure if this chickpea really is a girl!  I'm very excited!

6 comments:

tikun olam said...

I hated being pregnant. I did not join a secret pact and would have told you all about it if you had asked. Some people are lucky, but I think they are the minority. Pregnancy is hard, uncomfortable and if you are looking for truth, changes your body forever. Hang in there. Motherhood is hard, especially at the begining that first time around but there is a reason most of us with one kid choose to do it again (I did it twice bio but no way is my third coming bio, adoption from now on).

ginapennfiction.com said...

Thank you for finally saying it! I know you're right even though I've never had children. They say misery loves company. Now I understand why I'm scowled at while I shop at the grocery store. LOL

Seriously, I like kids and wish I could have them but my health problems prevent me from doing it. If there weren't so much bureaucratic red tape I would adopt.

Heathen Family said...

Now you know why I have one child. If I have ever neglected to tell you how much pregnancy sucks, I now apologize. Tis better to know and be prepared. Also, read books about c-section recovery. Seriously. I thought that rigorously preparing for a natural birth was the only thing I needed to do. If I had read a few books about c-sections and the emotional recovery process I would have been less depressed after Violet was born. It may feel pessimistic to prepare for a c-section, but it's better to know. Let me know when you want to hear about the mucous plug and wearing diaper-like pads for weeks after the baby comes ;) Good times.

Mimi said...

My sweet Michelle - I hate to say it but you are the exception to what I know about being pregnant. I enjoyed being pregnant up until the very end when I was so big I couldn't get comfortable no matter what I tried to do. I am so sorry you're having such a rough time but thank God these doctors are being cautious now and not saying "OMG" at the last minute. This will help you in the long run, I think. We always knew that jamming a baby into that tiny frame of yours was going to be a feat, right? Try to enjoy something about each day of your pregnancy. These days don't come again and once you have that baby, your life will never be the same. I must say they ARE worth every minute spent getting them here. I understand how frustrating constant health problems can be. I've had my share and not even a baby to show for it! I love you and wish I was close enough to help out.

Kylee said...

It will all be worth it!!!! A couple of my friends have given me the gory details through out their pregnancies and have said they'd do it again in a heartbeat for their special little one... just hang in there... you can do it... and when it's all said and done... you'll feel the same way... try to enjoy this when you can cause you'll miss pieces of it when it's over!!! GLAD YOU FINALLY BLOGGED!!!

Heidi said...

Oh my god, reading this blog just reminds me of how much I miss you:( There isn't a secret club, we just forget all of the side effects that don't really matter once that baby is in your hands. While reading your blog I remembered that I too had a yeast infection for the last 4 months of my pregnancy with Ethan. (who by the way is graduating this year and just had an interview for a full scholarship with VTC) As I said before, once that little heartbeat is placed on your breast and it cries for it's momma (you) you'll forget all about the annoying side effects you are experiencing right now. (mostly because the labor experience is fresh in your mind.lol just kidding) But really, it is soooooo worth everything you have to go through and I know you will forget just as easily as everyone else has.