Now, we wait. I'm trying not to get my hopes up while still trying to be positive, which is extremely difficult. I should know in a couple of weeks if it worked. Odds are that it doesn't work the first time, but I'm trying to stay positive about it. I'm also worried about not being able to try again next month because of not having the money to do it. How can I get $500 in 4 weeks? I guess we'll deal with that if the time comes. For now, I'm just trying to remain calm and upbeat, two traits that are pretty foreign to me, and go with the flow so to speak. I've been talking to the swimmers in hopes of directing them the right way and encouraging them, but I'm not sure it's working. I'll be sure to let everyone know if one of them made it...
Thursday, November 26, 2009
I think it hit me all of a sudden the other night. I had my first insemination on Tuesday. I was so nervous the day before, I was on the verge of panic attacks all day! The insemination itself was pretty anti-climactic, although for some reason the nurse couldn't find my uterus for some reason and had to try a couple of times before having to get a doctor to do it. It's a little awkward meeting someone and shaking their hand while you're in stirrups waiting for sperm to be injected in you. He was very nice and "found" my uterus. It wasn't painful at all, like I thought it might be. The nurse said that the motility was at 78.5%, which is high for frozen sperm and it had 28.5 million swimmers. She said that was good numbers as well. I knew picking a 19 year old was a good idea!
Sunday, November 22, 2009
I'm not known for my patience. I'm supposed to be ovulating between this past Friday and Thanksgiving, so everyday when I get up I have to test to see if I am. Trying to pee correctly on a little stick for exactly 5 seconds before I am even awake is not the easiest thing to do. I'm nervous and anxious and just want it to happen. Ideally, it will happen on Monday or Tuesday. I'm supposed to call the day I'm ovulating and they make the appointment for the insemination the next morning. As of this morning, I am not ovulating. On a different note, the test I had last week was fine. It did hurt a bit. Actually, it was an intense pain, but it was over quickly. They said everything looked good. So, I guess now is just a test of my patience, which I have a feeling this whole process will be. Wish me luck, I need it.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
I have another test to take on Tuesday: a hysterosalpingogram: try saying that 3 times in a row. I am a bit nervous, but my nurse said that I'll just have some cramping afterwards. I'm not so sure that putting dye in your cervix can feel all that great. On the plus side though, there is a chance that it might increase my chances of getting pregnant over the next couple of months and I need all the help I can get! If all goes well, my first insemination should be sometime the week of Thanksgiving... no need to panic right?
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Indecision is the story of my life. In the beginning of this journey, I decided to document everything and share it. When we weren't completely sure when it would happen and I thought I might be jinxing myself if I write about this all the time, I changed my mind. I decided to get rid of the blog until I "officially" began my journey, that is until I decided again that I was being superstitious and irrational and un-deleted this blog. Indecision... Now that it is almost time for my first insemination I have decided to write again, but I'll let you know if I change my mind.