Sunday, January 23, 2011

8 weeks and counting

I'm so sorry I've been MIA on this blog. Between being extremely sick, tired, and the incident last week, I haven't had the energy to do too much.  I am officially 8 weeks. I'm still very nauseous and can't seem to get enough sleep, but I'm hoping some of that will go away within the next month.

Here's our little chickpea at 8 weeks
I think I'm finally feeling better about last week's scare. I've never been so scared before. It was an awful experience that I wouldn't wish upon anyone.  We had to wait hours to see if I had lost the baby or not.  I truly thought I had. I had never seen so much blood in my life. I was terrified.  It turns out that they think I had a hemorrhage. Apparently, it's not that uncommon.  I have never heard of this happening, but after the doctor's did my beta test and the ultrasound, they were pretty sure that's what happened. Anyway, I'm trying to move on from that, but I'm still a little nervous and scared that something might happen again. 

I have my first OB appointments next week, so I'll finally be away from all the hospital doctors. I don't think I've seen the same doctor or nurse twice.  I'm not sure if I'll have another ultrasound or not. I've already had 3! I will try not to be too absent from here anymore either. After all, it was my idea to record my journey, right?

Sunday, January 2, 2011

Week 5

I've been a bit MIA here on my blog and on Twitter and Facebook. I think I've just been processing everything.  It's strange that I've wanted to get pregnant for so long and now that I am, I'm scared out of my mind! Not that I regret it, I just think I never thought it would ever happen. I'm scared my little body won't be able to carry a baby, I'm scared of childbirth,  and I'm scared I won't be a good parent. I'm sure all of these things are normal feelings, at least I hope so. There are still days when it seems unreal. I am however having morning sickness, or all day sickness really. I've also been ridiculously tired. I've never been so tired all my life. I feel a little narcoleptic at work sometimes.  I'm entering my 5th week tomorrow and my first ultrasound is this Friday.  I am getting a little excited though. I bought a pregnancy journal and a prenatal yoga dvd yesterday. I need to start exercising a little.  I think that will make me feel a million times better.  So, I hope to not go MIA again on everyone. My goal is to at least post every week if not more.  I'll let everyone know how the ultrasound goes.

PS: We found out on New Years day that C's step-dad passed away. If you could keep him and his family in your thoughts/prayers it wold be much appreciated.