Tuesday, December 8, 2009


I've never been more disappointed to get my period than I was a couple of days ago. So, attempt #1 is a no-go. Now, that I've had some time to process it, I can talk about it. I didn't really expect to react the way I have. I thought that maybe I'd be angry or frustrated, but what I truly feel is just sadness. It feels as if I've lost something I never had which makes me sound completely crazy. I cried a little and thought a lot, and I don't know how many times I can actually go through this loss. I have never felt anything like it.

On a happier note, we are going to try again in January and with the help of drugs, so that will up our chances. It would be a good start to the new year!