Saturday, March 26, 2011

Lies

Whoever says pregnancy is the most beautiful time in your life are liars. Big fat liars.  I never thought being pregnant would be all sunshine and rainbows, but I never thought I'd be experiencing some things I'm going through. I think mothers must have some sort of secret pact to never tell any innocent,  not yet pregnant woman all the bad things that can happen.  Don't get me wrong; I am extremely grateful that I even got pregnant, but, really, someone should tell you about these things!

Now that my "extreme" morning sickness is gone, I have moved onto other problems. I still get morning sickness, just not all day everyday like in the first 3 months. But, believe me, it's still there.  I was sent to a cardiologist to check my heart murmur, and they discovered while doing an echo that one of my heart valves stays closed.  This scared the crap out of me.  I'd never heard of this and it was the last thing I could even think of happening.  Well, turns out, some of my sisters have the same thing, and they just have it monitored, but have no real problems with it.  This made me feel a bit better. My OB is still having me talk to a cardiologist next week, just to explain things.  My OB is also having me see a high risk OB.  Between, my heart and my breathing issue, (I have some restrictive breathing due to my ribs not being completely curled as they should),  they thought I should talk to the high risk doctor and get her opinion.  She is less worried about my heart than she is about my breathing.  When you're preggo and in the 3rd trimester, most women do have some breathing issues since everything gets all smooshed up (not the technical term)  to make room for the baby. Which leads to me seeing a pulminologist on Monday.  I will be having breathing tests and who knows what else to check my lung capacity.  I'm definitely not looking forward to this and honestly a little scared of the results.  This is all just a bit too much for someone with anxiety to take in.

Lately, I've been in a lot of pain. Like, I can't walk very fast and look like I'm an 80 year old woman kind of pain.  My docs think it's my sciatica.  It's ridiculously painful.  My OB has referred me to a chiropractor and physical therapist in hopes to alleviate some of the pain.  To top it all off, they think I have a bladder infection, which is fairly common while pregnant.  Again, no one tells you these things.  While at the OB for said bladder infection yesterday, they also discovered I have a yeast infection! Really. Sorry if that's TMI, but I'm pregnant and don't care anymore. It's never ending I tell you!

My hope is that this little one will all be worth it in the end.  I think it will.
16 weeks

Maybe the reason mothers don't tell you all the gory details is because in the long run it pales in comparison to being a mother. Either way, I am refusing to be a part of this so called secret pact! 

In other news, my next ultrasound is in about a week.  Hopefully we'll find out for sure if this chickpea really is a girl!  I'm very excited!