Please excuse me while I whine for a moment

So, I'm finally feeling better after having the plague for a week and a half. Yet, I have this intense feeling of sadness.  I'm in the middle of my 2 week wait and I think I'm feeling a little PMS.  I've been pretty neutral about IUI#3 up until this point, but now, really feel like it didn't work.  I don't know why I feel this way, but I do.  Maybe it's my body preparing me for the disappointment? I'm not sure. I don't have the motivation to do anything Christmasy or put up our tree.  We aren't buying presents for each other this year, because we're saving for any future IUI's or the possible IVF's.  I just feel SAD.  It would be the greatest Christmas gift ever if it worked, but it will also be a bad one if it didn't. I wish I didn't feel like this. Maybe I've been in the house too long and away from civilization? I really hope so...