Sunday, September 19, 2010

No more guilt?

 Before I get back to 30 days, I just want to thank everyone for their positive comments.  I am not feeling so guilty anymore.  I realized that maybe this happened for a reason to show me that I don't want a child that age and truly want a baby.  When we talk to the resource coordinator, we are going to tell her this.  It may take longer to get a placement, but we feel this is the right decision.   We're also not ruling out another IUI in the future.  C thinks I need to get "healthier" physically and mentally before we do that again and I agree, or maybe we can actually find a willing donor. Any takers out there? Anyway, that's the update on the baby front...

I've realized I've missed quite a few posts for my 30 days project.  Day 10 is a photo of you taken over 10 years ago.  I don't have anything that old on my computer so I'm skipping this one.  Day 11 is a photo of you recently.  I hate getting my picture taken, but I guess I'll share this one because it's so rare that a photo is taken of me and our crazy dog Lucy.

She looks pretty scared, probably because I was trying to get her to look at the computer. 

3 comments:

Kylee said...

I am glad that you are choosing to see what happened as a learning experience. I truly believe that's what it was and I really do believe you and C would make good parents. I am also glad that you have someone like C to support you and be honest with you. Everyone should have a C in their life. Sounds like you know what you need to do and just need to put it into action. Remember, it will happen when the time is right:) Keep us posted and keep your chin up!!!

Kelly said...

Aaron offered to donate, but seeing as he had a vasectomy last year, that's not really helpful. His heart's in the right place though. You two would make a mighty cute baby ;)

Michelle said...

Well, thank Aaron for me anyways. :)

Kylee- thanks for always being so positive. I need that!