As of right now it looks like we probably won't get T. They are putting his case "on hold" for a couple of reasons, one being that he may go back with his original foster family. We were told this Friday when I called to see if we could go see him Saturday and take him out again. Earlier in the week, we had bought him a Woody doll and book because he is obsessed with Toy Story and we were going to give it to him Saturday. I guess that's not going to happen now. I truly hate all of this. I'm mad and depressed and sad for him. He needs a permanent home and he still doesn't have one. All of this just makes me realize how much I want to have my own baby and it's depressing because that just doesn't even seem plausible anymore. I've always said that I wanted to have a baby or at least be pregnant by the time I'm 35. 35 is quickly catching up to me. Maybe we should start playing the lottery so we could either try as many inseminations as we want or could adopt outright. What scares me the most is what if I'm just not meant to be a mother at all? I'm not sure I can handle that.
So, instead of playing with T on Saturday, we went to Barre looking for a Volkswagen for me, unsuccessfully I might add and went into Montpelier to Hunger Mountain Co-op. I've been wanting to check it out. I actually liked it better than the co-op we have here. We decided to have lunch in their cafe and it was very yummy.
|I had homemade hummus with lettuce, tomato, onion, cucumber & carrot on gluten-free bread|
|C had a wrap with herbed artichokes, roasted red peppers, cucumber and lettuce|