Mr. 5800

I've had quite a few questions from people about our donor.  I thought I'd share some info about hims, since he played such a big part in this.  So, here are the facts: Mr. 5800 is average height and weight with curly brown hair and blue eyes.  He has an interesting ethnic background; he is half Hungarian/Israeli and half Polish/Russian/Israeli.  Who knows what this kid is going to look like! He seems pretty smart, at least on paper. He has high SAT scores, and has a degree in Economics and International Business.  Mr. 5800 is also pretty active and athletic. One of the most important things to me is that there aren't any major medical problems in his family. Well, there you have him in a nutshell.  Thanks for helping us have a family Mr. 5800!

I can't believe it

I really can't believe it, but it's true; I'm pregnant! It's very early in the game. My insemination was on December 6th, but 2 home tests and 2 blood tests say I am.  I'm still a little cautious with it being so early, but I'm very excited! The last few days I have been extremely tired which I've been told is normal.  My first ultrasound is on January 7th. I don't even know what else to say. I think I'm still in shock!

Please excuse me while I whine for a moment

So, I'm finally feeling better after having the plague for a week and a half. Yet, I have this intense feeling of sadness.  I'm in the middle of my 2 week wait and I think I'm feeling a little PMS.  I've been pretty neutral about IUI#3 up until this point, but now, really feel like it didn't work.  I don't know why I feel this way, but I do.  Maybe it's my body preparing me for the disappointment? I'm not sure. I don't have the motivation to do anything Christmasy or put up our tree.  We aren't buying presents for each other this year, because we're saving for any future IUI's or the possible IVF's.  I just feel SAD.  It would be the greatest Christmas gift ever if it worked, but it will also be a bad one if it didn't. I wish I didn't feel like this. Maybe I've been in the house too long and away from civilization? I really hope so...

Paranoid

So I'm done with the Femara and have moved on to the OPK (ovulation predictor kit).  It is cycle day  11 and I'm anxiously awaiting to see that smiley face on the digital reader!  Because I worry too much and over think everything, I've been starting to doubt these overpriced OPK's. Are they truly accurate? Did I get a broken kit? Will I miss my LH surge and have to wait until the next cycle? I know I've read that a lot of you other infertile gals get an ultrasound to make sure there's an egg there waiting, right? Why hasn't my RE never done this?  Sometimes I think they're just out to get our money.  I know I need to stop stressing and relax because worrying will not help any.  Can anyone put my mind at ease? I am so paranoid...

Almost time!

I'm getting excited about IUI #3! It will most likely happen next week some time.  I've been taking the Femara for 2 days now and I'm not sure if I'm having side effects or not.  I feel nauseous and very tired, which are some of the side effects, but who knows if that's why. As long as it doesn't make me feel like I need to be in a padded room like Clomid did, I'm fine! I realized that we'll find out if it took right before Christmas.  I'm hoping I'll have a Christmas miracle, because it will be difficult to get through the holidays if I don't. But, I need to think positive, so I won't dwell on that.  I'll keep you posted! :)

Thanksgiving

While I don't celebrate Thanksgiving the "traditional" way, I do believe it is a day to reflect on what we are thankful for.  I think those of us dealing with infertility and TTC sometimes get caught up in what we want so desperately, that we forget the good things we already have. (at least I do) So right now at this moment I'm going to concentrate on the things that I am thankful for...

• C- He has been in my life for 10 years now and I can't imagine a life without him.  
• My family- Even though I am very far from all of them, I know if I needed anything at all, they would all be there. 
• My furry babies- They drive me crazy some days, but I love them. Yes, even Lucy :)
• My job- I actually have a job that I like and work for an organization that I'm proud to be a part of. Do I make enough money? No, but sometimes money isn't everything.
• My friends- I may not talk to them every day or even every month, but there are a few friends who have been in my life for awhile that always will be.

What are you thankful for?

*Not* trying not to get my hopes up

IUI #3 should be happening in a couple of weeks.  Everything feels very different this time. I don't feel as stressed or worried.  We are using a different donor and instead of taking Clomid, I'll be taking Femara, which has less side effects I'm told.  Everyone keeps telling me not to get my hopes up, but really that is impossible.  There is no way I can't get my hopes up.  If it doesn't work this time, I will be upset and I will cry.  These things are inevitable.  I think I stress myself out way more trying to stay "neutral".  So, I am done with staying "neutral" and am so excited for this IUI! I feel positive about it.  I also know that if it doesn't work, we can try again.  Cycle Day 1 should be around Thanksgiving.  Third times the charm right?

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